Congratulation, i hate you

no one ever said that life was fair and I'm not saying that it should be so knowing that you are where you want to be and I'm not comes as no surprise but don't expect me to be happy for you and don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too I don't want your pity... I hate your pity taste your vanity its sweet bitterness as you hide behind your veil of my stolen hopes and lost dreams you took them all I watched you steal my thoughts and had to see you smile as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy beg me to make this easier and listen to my hopeless cries suffer alone in emptiness I lust to see you swallowed by the mess that you left in your wake disgust lies deep within your empty gaze beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries send stares into your meaningless eyes my envy can't describe how I loathe you for having all the stars leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine yet it's you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve I'll tear off your face to see your smile as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy