What it is

here's a purpose, there's a goal, there's a virtuos, and immoral, there's a reason for all of this, and i don't know what it is i am one, and plural too, i accept them but they exclude, i could make sense of all of this, but i don't know what it is the seeds of inspiration never germinated in my mind, the beacon of awakening is somewhere that i can't find, so i don't know what it is there's a beginning, and there's an end, there's a climax, some would contend, there's a way to signify this, but i don't know what it is.