I fall apart

Without you I no longer swim upstream Where are you when I try to fill the spaces in between The red letter days and all the pain And while I remain shipwrecked everything has changed And I fall apart With this threat of indecision Hanging in my heart This house can get so lonely When the day grows dark And it seems to be the night time When I fall apart Can't you tell the shadows no longer comfort me I don't feel the need to cling to anyone I see This fool's suffered gladly each and every day I don't wish to reconsider, I wish they'd stay away I've no care to count the stares that pity me I'll wash your hurt away just you wait and see For every rose you give her I'll give her three But in the meantime I'll just wish that she was me