Why i am here

it's the reason for my pain in a season to celebrate i don't wanna be full of hate for anybody, but it's too late everyone has been in my face telling me that i'm a disgrace showing me things that i must face telling me that they need their space i cant' love you anymore i'm scared of the sound of it it's the reason why i'm down i'm beaten been pushed around hit the ceiling without a sound everone i know considers me a clown i can't love you anymore i'm scared of the sound of it i can't love you anymore woman, i just wanted more i can't love you anymore scared of the sound of it and woman, i just wanted more it's the reason why i'm here