Bitter end

Once I sat down and pondered About a sense I have wondered I have searched my deep, inner core And I said... to think I shall not anymore... The thought has aged me whole It ruined body, mind and soul Oh, thoughtless if I'd been born Couldn't wail, nor could I've been torn Fetid thought, spawning curse I shouldn't invoke thee anymore Only pain and suffering you brought The worst disappointment you are I'd want to live without knowing In this world or in it's following Since then, misanthropy My alibi you should be And when the grand dark hour falls I'd be far from mankind's calls Into the great wide I would dive Unaware if I am dead or alive! Once I sat down and pondered About a sense I have wondered I have searched my deep, inner core And I said... to think I shall not anymore... Fetid thought, spawning curse I shouldn't invoke thee anymore Only pain and suffering you brought The worst disappointment you are